Forgiveness.....

When i was young....i had been patient & patient hope the day i will walk out from darkness...I'm happy that when im finished my High school....It's time & chance to get out myself from the darkness...!!!!!

The feeling leave this "home" it's like walking into a light.... a new life for me.....

I choose a tough life for myself to put oneself through the mill.....because this is the only way to get out from darkness....

I'm happy and proud that, what i did in my Life when i was in KL....even there just only one meal rice i can took in perday....

But unfortunately in past 3 years i met a wrong lover, wrong friendship, born from wrong family(maybe...???)

Love- pull me into hell....

Friendship- pull me into jail.....

Family- no comment....

I'm trying to hold my tears....leave it miles away from sadness...To restart my life....

tell myself that....always forgiveness ( the only way to let go everything in my life)

Life is full of SEX....

That's a boring day for me to stay at home.....saturday...where to go...???Most weekend i will just stay at home with my family member or alone in my place. Afternoon i was receive a called someone from kl...call me go club to join them...i was thinking about it...that's few month i didnt went club..after back from bkk...

I'm not really like to club...everytime go to club, i just drink n listen music only lolz...like uncle style...lolz...haha....i prefer go club to see people dance...hehe...

When the night time...i went club...shit man...that's heavy raining day in penang...around midnight i arrive the club...and join them...
They treat me are quite friendly...keep talk to me....entertain me.....
After finish the club, we went to supper...the moment suddenly feel that i miss club in bkk much...coz midnight still got some of nice food and others...haha...i love bkk food much...Thanks J..when you guide me in bkk....haha...

I drive car and follow them to supper...when during supper...i notice that...that's 2 person keep looking at me...just dont know why...finish supper...i receive a sms from one of them ...

C sms: Can hug you tonight?
Me : You so naughty, but tonight cannot hug me...just hug ur pillow...haha
C sms : Can you dont go back tonight...?
Me : i'm tired..i need to go back rest...( shit man almost 5am )
C sms : we can go hotel rest, that's more comfortable for us...
Me : just tell me, want you want from me...?
C sms: we go hotel for 3p ok..? if u dont wan 3p..we can have group sex...i will try to call someone..i have some excited things...
Me : im sorry...im not into sex...

After reply C sms...i straight drive my car go back and rest...
haiz....i really boring about this topic lolz...
i do understand what they want in their life...but im just not the person into sex...they find wrong people....everyone need different thing in their life...

This is always happened to me....maybe my face always show people that i'm hungry for sex...haha

But Aric just make love with someone i love...
maybe in future i will be slut...?? who's know?
but i dont think i will...haha....because i love myself...lolz..
Sweet dream to you all guys...hugs

Time to turn the new chapter...

I already start my sem break now....that's really boring...i'm the person not really like to holiday...coz it make me feel like waste time lolz...

After move the new place for myself...i think... Time i should turn on a new page...new chapter for myself..
I'm sad that when im moving to new apartment...that's not because of i miss the place...that's because i really need to throw all the thing from you in this time...i do keep many memories...between you and me...
But this time...i really throw all the thing...i didn't keep anything in my new room again...
i do wanna leave you...forget you in my life...
sometimes...you try to sms...i didn't reply...
you try to call...I'm ignore...

I really need a holiday..to refresh myself, refresh my mind...thanks Cally...thanks for your ticket...i do appreciate what you did for me...
Human are always make me confuse...i'm already lazy to wearing those face mask to talk to people...i have no that talent...

...love still in your eye....

But i still need to say bye to you...i'm sorry...CY...
Aric need time to heal myself...just give me time....
Sorry J....if you think that i was hurt you...
Aric really have no idea about love....

The last night in this room...

It's so busy in this few day..finally i finish all my exam paper...and started need move house..
i really got lots of stuff...lazy to move it lolz...haiz...
In this few day, i have watch this movie..with my frens..


It's talk about a psychosis girl..and some ghost story...i felt that is quite nice story for me...




that is another phrase for this photo i was heard from someone...that is i'm look like gigolo in this pic...i really fainted now...haha

Tonight is the last night i write my blog in this room....
my mind is full of silent memory..
i saw the silent moon say goodbye to me..
time i need to leave, time i really need throw all the memory that i kept...
time i should forget you, time u need to leave me now...
don't try to hold my hand again...
let us disappear in our life....



Smile moving to my new nest....




Finally airasia got flight to TW...haha..i will go in one day...planing in this yrs...hope i can make it..yeah...

New apartment...New life....New Aric...

Memory...

Yesterday i was busy wholeday for revision, have no free time to write my blog...hehe..
I'm fight for my whole sem book till 2am....then actually 7am i woke up...but the weather in penang really really very nice...hahaha...raining in the morning..it's so nice to sleep lolz...im PIGGY...haha

Around 9am..i woke up and keep revision again...because exam 2pm...
when the time was coming...OMG..i really afraid about it...i never feel so nervous during my exam...lucky...i knew how to do..for my exam..haha...


Female Friend & Aric....

Today one of my msn fren told me that...I'm look like Tom Boy(TB) in this photo lolz...i really fainted...haha...aric is sick about it....haha..This photo i use my phone took it..not in studio...
When look at this photo...i do miss the moment i kiss with someone (But not this girl la)...already long long time..i never have a kiss with people...all my naughty skill are rusty now...hahaha..
my mind was recall, the moment when kiss with you...
my mind was recall, all the night when you are beside me for 2 years...Now im happy that i did the right decision for myself...i have to independent...i do enjoy my single life in sometimes..but sometimes when i feel that i need love..i will just look at the beach from my room...beach melt my heart..
Aric only love beach now....

I really learnt a lots thing from you...love are full of slut, flirt, sex.....i really dont know where the others good personality to go...I thanks God that..always let me saw a lot of thing...what kind of nowadays human need about love...
This is Love.....if you know the meaning from the pic..lolz


Dinner time i went Manhattan Fish Market with my friends...that's 4 person meal....really lots lolz....haha


it's nice....i like it....

Time need to move new house soon....
again...I will throw all my rubbish and sadness memory...
Hope...new apartment...new life...new Aric

Pink playboy....cool !!!

Everytime when other people look at me...the 1st impression i give people is....i'm the person always club...slut...playboy... lolz...this always happened to me. Even my classmate, some of my senior they also agree lolz...but no one see me in club before...haha..maybe i really a naughty guy , who's know???...hehe...Try me, you will know?? ( register with Aric) haha...Come Come...Aric will guide you...hehe

The another thing is...because of my hotmail address is...xxx 7s @hotmail.com...
then many people they thought i have 7 inch cock lolz...Below 18 yrs old...go bed now ya, UNDER AGE topic..hahaha
this is WESTERN one...not ASIAN...haha

Today really is another boring day to me...the wholeday i'm stay at home revision....exam soon...need to fight for it....this afternoon i was called the faker (the person using fake pic to know me)

Aric : hi, are you free to talk now...?
Faker : ya..how are you? already few day you didnt sms me...
Aric : oo...i was waiting your sms also...
Faker : are you already have your lunch ?
Aric : ya..how about you?
Faker : me too, do you have miss me?
i really no comment to this person lolz, i already knew you are faker...still want to pretend...face really thick...haha
Aric : No, i was thinking are you mixed?
Faker : how do you think?
Aric : hello, you mixed or not...you ask me?? how i know?
Faker : Then you think lo...
Aric : how many language you know ?
Faker : few lor...why today all your question so weird??
Aric : nothing, just wanna know you more...anything thing want to say sorry to me?
Faker : are you ok?
Aric : ya, im ok...if nothing wanna tell me..im going off now
Faker : ok, see you...dont naughty ya

Shit xxx...still wanna flirt with me....after off the phone i sms this person...i knew you are faker, using the fake pic...I'm trying to give you a chance to apologize to me...but you din...if you still wanna continue our friendship just apologize to me...( i really stupid lolz...already know this person 1 yrs lolz...) Damn stupid Aric...haiz...this is the 1st time i saw myself so stupid...sad...useless
I"m not going to angry about it, the purpose i do it..because of i want the person know what their wrong... want they admit...sounds like im so naive...haha


DESERT......i miss tong shui this moment... this is bird nest with coconut, i tried it when in HK.....also the time i knew Will...haha


this is the one i always cook for someone last time

Talk about tong shui, i was remember last time a person was always cook tong shui for me the best one is Bird Nest tong shui...hehe....it's really nice....i love it...



唯獨是你不可取代，叫我如何不愛他
it's nice song i listen today...
Aric will throw all his sadness memories to beach soon...

This young boy really like a panda lolz...haha

aww....I saw a panda when i wake up...shit man...my face really terrible, need mask later...hehe...
next time need to relax myself before going bed..try to don't insomnia...i hope...

I wake up...someone in msn touch about love question try to hint to me...i do understand what this person want from me...but i try to ignore...hehe...im so bad....but about love, i really have no comment...it's like lots trouble to me...i have no confident about love anymore...it's hard for me to build up again...Love= Aric sick about it lolz...haha

Again....the whole afternoon I stay in my room...i was thinking how to solve my problem about the contract...it's really damn annoying...I'm stress about it lolz...haiz..i really feel like wanna slap J...shit man...i really hate you guy...Aric tired and lazy play this kind of games...haiz...always let me think think think easy to get old lolz...


Night time, i will dinner with someone...in G hotel...Buffet.. This is penang G hotel....lolz...but im not promote to u all guy...haha






wow....salad is there...i love it...!!!

it's fresh....hehe....quite nice

That's great BBQ food...love it much...

My last meal....desert....hehe

Thanks J you invite me to this restaurant....but this J are not the person i hate la...hehe..
This person quite nice...friendly, good listener....
happy with my dinner....but i feel that not really nice for me lolz...i will just give 70/100 for the food...
I prefer my starhill desert...haha...miss it much
almost 2 months i didnt go KL already....lolz...im not going miss KL much...lots my sadness was there....

thanks for read my blog....sweet dream to you all...
something sadness still in Aric heart...